Posted in Reflections

Beautiful Munnar

I couldn’t stop myself from writing about this..Last week we visited Munnar and I absolutely fell in love with the place. The monsoons are just starting and the place looks even more beautiful with on and off showers. The lush greenery, beautiful climate will make anyone feel lost in the beauty of nature 

After what I felt in Himalayas, I felt the same amount of euphoric joy and peace in munnar.. the plantations all around are absolutely beautiful..you can find coffee, tea, cardamom, pepper, pineapple, jackfruit, banana, what not..Anyone planning to go for a hill station, I would definitely recommend munnar.  

We stayed at “Ambady resort ” which is a queit and peaceful estate of 125km full of plantations with just 8 cottages. They prepare all the food, organic from home grown plantation. The cottages are peaceful and interiors are beautifully decorated. 

cottage in Ambady resort

personal patio for each cottage

pineapple plant

tea plantation

coffee plants

tapioca plants

pepper plantation

jackfruit plants

athirapally watertfalls (where bahubali was shot)

Be sure to visit this place atleast once. The natural beauty is spell binding..don’t miss it..

Posted in Reflections, short stories

if only…. (#short story)

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He was lying there wounded and in pain.. She wanted to go to him, but he dint let her go any closer.. She stood there staring at him helpless and hurt, seeing him suffering.. She wanted to do something, but dint know what to do.. he wouldn’t let her even move close to him .. He said “you have broken my heart..you have hurt me..all your false promises broke me today..you used me” ..

Those words struck her heart and a sharp pain arose ..”I did not know how that happened.. I never wanted to hurt him..I had always tried my best to do all that I can, though I knew it was not enough! But I never wanted to hurt him.. I have always loved him dearly with all my heart” She thought .. She felt guilty, hurt and hopeless

She stood there staring at him with tears in her eyes and no words to defend herself.. He was bleeding and she felt of no use.. He looked at her fiercely and closed the door..For the first time she felt scared of him..She wanted to hold him and rest his head on her lap and tend to his wound, but she was not able to move even an inch .

He was angry and hurt due to her. He dint want to see her. He felt betrayed and hopeless. “I loved her so much and she dint care enough” he thought..

She sat there beside the door thinking of ways to make things right! She wanted to talk, reason out and find some way in which he would open the door and let her in.. But her brain couldn’t think of anything useful.. whatever she said sounded so lame and she was not sure if he even heard her.. Meanwhile a dull pain started in her head and she started feeling difficulty in breathing..

He was able to listen to her every word.. But he felt too numb with hurt to even respond.. He wanted her to do something.. do something and reach out to him.. Make him trust her again.. words were not enough for him…

Hours and hours went by and she couldn’t do anything.. “How can I save him just sitting here and talking.. I dont know what is going on his mind ..What can I do to fix things..” she thought

She felt weak and devoid of energy and her mind was not helping..

Feeling helpless and hopeless, she leaned against the wall and remembered all the good memories they had..

Tired and exhausted, he leaned against the wall and escaped into memories of them together..

Both of them, just remained there until they succumbed to the pain…

If only, the wall between them could be broken…

Posted in Sketches

Lee Min Ho Sketch

 

I had liked Lee Min Ho in “Boys over flowers” and “personal taste”.. But I became a huge fan after watching him in “Faith” … I was in love the character of the Wu-dal-Chi.. The ideal person who even gives up his life to keep his word..

Since then I wanted to make a sketch of him and here it is!! Am not any expert, but I tried my best and this is my best attempt!! After working on it for last 6 hours, I am finally satisfied 🙂 ..

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Posted in Reflections

Beautiful mind..

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The other day, I got this new perfume. I love shopping for random new fragrances. The next day when I used it, the smell of the perfume, brought back the fond memories of the trip I took one year back. Then I got reminded, I used the same perfume during the trip that time. The fragrance suddenly made me feel elated, happy (the way I felt during the trip a year back)

That made me think, how beautiful our mind is. How a smell can trigger back the memories related to that and make it feel so real..take us back to those times..

Our senses are amazing, isn’t it? Listening to some songs takes us back to those times and replay those memories once again. Some memories bring tears when we miss those times or people, while some memories bring smiles to our faces as we recall the happy times. Some words/sentences remind us of the people who often use them..

The taste of Mango avakai sent by mom, brings back the memories of home. Where mom is serving avakai with ghee, sitting at home and having a sumptous lunch chatting with mom, dad and sisters.

Seeing some pictures, photos, movie scenes or some places can trigger memories associated with them. Its amazing!! While modern day digital photos can store memories, there is always limit to the storage. But our brain, there is practically no limit at all. It can save all the memories and bring back those memories along with the feel associated with them..

In awe with the beauty of our mind…beautiful!! 🙂 🙂

Posted in Reflections

Learn to say NO

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Most of us have this problem of not being able to say “No” in most situations.

There could be multiple reasons behind this –

-> you don’t want to do some thing but cant say it on the face, as you don’t want to hurt the other person

-> you know you can’t do it (or don’t want to do it) but can’t say it out of fear/respect towards the other person

-> you are not sure whether you can do it, but still say ‘yes’ because you want to do it somehow (or hope to do it)

-> you don’t want to do it, but just to keep your good impression, you go ahead and say yes and don’t care much about it (thatz rude :/)

-> You think you are a super man/woman who can do anything to keep everyone happy 😛

Am sure most of us can identify ourselves in above situations. Either of the case above, what we have to realize is that, we ourselves will be the ones to bear the damage.

At work, if you commit to something and not able to perform later, it can be treated as under-performance. You will not have a chance to give explanation, as you would be told you should have fore-seen it before accepting the task (which is valid). So, its better to think in all dimensions before committing to something

In personal life too, if you commit to something and not able to do it, it can be treated as not keeping promises or not being sincere. So, instead of giving hopes and later being seen as someone who doesn’t stand by their words , its better to weigh the situation carefully before saying yes to something or someone.

Even if you cant say no as you don’t want to hurt the other person, remember that saying yes and then not keeping your word can cause more damage.

So, whatever the case may be – learn to say “No” whenever it is needed. Its OK to say NO at times !!

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Posted in Reflections

Happy Sankranti :)

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 Like everytime, we came to our hometown for festival holidays and all the roads are filled with colorful rangolis wishing happy sankranti.

This took me back to my childhood days when the real celebration of sankranti was there. Sankranti is considered the biggest festival in Andhra, mainly as it is during the harvest season. Since the harvest is ready, people used to celebrate the new harvest with every member of family. 

The day before sankranti is celebrated as Bhogi, where “bhogi manta” (bon fire) is made early in the morning . It indicates burning away all the bad things of the past and start afresh for future. Beautiful rangolis are made infront of the houses.

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Then there is Hari-Dasu (considered as the Lord Narada himself) who comes to every house for a handful of grains and blesses each family with wealth and prosperity.

Image result for haridasuGangireddu is another festival speciality, in which the gangireddus (bulls decorated and worshipped – considered as Nandi – the vaahanam (vehicle) of Lord Shiva himself) are brought along with the person accompanying them (considered as Lord Shiva himself) playing beautiful songs from their melam (a percussion instrument). Every household gives some grains to the person and some clothes to cover the bull and receives blessings from them. It is considered that on the eve of the festival, Lord Shiva himself comes down with his Nandi to visit each family and bless them.

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Another specialty of the festival is lip-smacking sweets and savouries. All the members of the family sit together and make the tasty items. Also, this day of the year, everyone makes sure to remember their elders (who passed away) and give some offerings to them.

The  colorful kites flying in the skies celebrate the spirit of Sankranti. Sankranthi is all about thanking God for the happiness, celebrating new beginnings and spending time with family!!

Wish you all a Happy Sankranthi!!

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A day with the kids

Today as part of our LOTUS activities, we had a science workshop for the kids (6th and 7th). It was so much fun looking at the excitement in their eyes as they finished one experiment after other.
We have chosen simple experiments which would mainly look like toys with a concept of science behind. The kids were so excited at the working models and were also curious to know how and why it worked that way. Working with them brought out the child in us and we also had as much fun.

We had referred to this wonderful site of Aravind toys – which is about making toys from every day available materials with a simple concept of science behind. All those interested can take a look at their site : http://www.arvindguptatoys.com/toys.html

Here are some pictures from the event…


Keep the child in you alive  🙂 🙂

 

 

Posted in Reflections, short stories

an unplanned date..

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I looked at my phone and dialed Rahul..”I want to shop for a money purse for my dad..can you help me”, I asked him. “Sure, I will call you back in five mins” he said. I had an office outing in the first half of the day and the second half was free.  He must be in office and busy, but I felt like asking him anyway.

I have known Rahul since the last two months. He is my friend’s colleague and has been trying a lot to ask me out. However, many things happened in the last couple of years in my life due to which I stopped thinking about love, relationship or guys.

Some days later, as we chatted on gtalk, I told him how I was not interested in all these things and he should not waste his time around me. I said “I don’t want to give you false hopes by befriending you”. But all he said was “The fact that I like you is my problem. I will take care of it. You don’t worry about it and just be my friend. That is all I want”. Very good at words, I dint know how to say no to that.

Today is the first time I have called him on my own. I was not sure why, but I decided to not think much and listen to my heart. As I was deeply immersed in my thoughts, my phone rang. He said “Can you come to marathalli. I enquired with my friends and they say we can find the money purse there. I could come and pick you, but my office is very far, so it would waste lot of time”.  I smiled at him trying to explain, after all he was helping me out here – why is he trying to explain to me.

I took an auto and reached marathalli. He was already there waiting for me. We checked couple of shops, but they dint have what I wanted.  As we were looking in the shops, it felt strange for me, after many years this was the first time I came out shopping with a guy. I wonder what was different in this guy, that made me do this.

We decided we better try at Commerical street, we will definitely find it there. He asked me to wait at the exit gate and he would get his bike from parking. As I waited there, I thought I was going to sit on a guy’s bike after many years. What am I doing? Is it OK? Am I giving hopes to this guy when I clearly was not ready for it? The sound of the horn, brought me back to reality – I had phased out again. He was there coming on his bike, and I must say, he looked very handsome. He stopped infront of me, took off his helmet and said “I wish I had a camera now, to capture the view. It is so beautiful”.  The way he looked into my eyes and said this, made my heart flutter and a hint of smile appear on my lips. He was obviously referring to me. Normally, listening to such lines, I would have felt how cheesy they are, but to my surprise I could feel myself blushing.

I quickly avoided his gaze and got onto the back seat. He was very good at driving, I was impressed by the way he maneuvered the Airport road traffic. We chatted some random stuff all along and I could notice him stealing glances at me through his bike mirror. “I am so happy today that a girl has got onto my bike” he said as we stopped at a traffic signal. “As if no other girl, got on your bike. Don’t tell me” I said.  “I mean, a girl who I like”.. I was a bit happy listening to this, but was worried at the same time. “Oh! No!! I am giving false indications” I thought. I decided to take control and said “Rahul, I told you how I felt. I can’t come with you if you feel that way about me.. ”. “Relax!” he said, “I am just telling you the truth. Besides, there is nothing you should feel so worried about. Don’t think much and just enjoy the moment. Life is all about memories”.

We reached commercial street and found a very good bag for dad. It started getting dark and the streets were illuminated. It looked beautiful. Walking on the streets with him by my side, talking all nonsense– it felt weird. Weird but nice, nice and fun. I actually liked spending time with him, but there was something stopping me from admitting it to myself.

The walking around and shopping made me hungry. We decided to stop at McD to grab a burger. As we sat there facing each other having our burgers, it felt nice and relaxing after a long day. We talked about our past crushes, office stories etc etc. Amidst all these, one thing I noticed was the way he looked at me. There was so much love in his eyes and I couldn’t dare to look straight into them. I was not able to hold eye contact for more than a second, don’t know why. Probably I felt, that way he will be able to peek into my soul and know how I started feeling about him. I know that sounds too filmy, but blame the number of Rom-Coms I watch :).

I realized that it was already 8pm and I was getting late. I wondered how fast time has flown. As we walked back to the bike parking, the roads were a bit deserted now. The cool night, the empty roads and the moon light, it felt nice to walk with him. I told him to walk slow as I was not able to catch up with him. He said, his mother is also like me, she walks slow and says the same. Somehow, I liked that he remembered his mother while being with me.

He promised to take me home before 9pm and we reached well in advance, thanks to his driving skills. As he dropped me off at my home, I thanked him for helping me out. He said he was glad I called him today and he had a wonderful time. As I said my Bye and walked towards the lift, I started thinking – all these feelings I felt today, are they real? I never thought I could feel this way about a guy again, after what happened in my past. He made me feel special, he made me feel loved. Should I be cautious, take a step back and avoid it? Or should I go with it?

For once, do not think much and let things happen…Just enjoy the moment.. you deserve some love…my heart told me… ❤

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self-doubt..women..career

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Recently I have started reading this book “Lean in” by Sheryl Sandberg and I would recommend it to all the career women out there

I have read about 90 pages and I could connect to lot of things she says in it. One of the topics particularly struck a chord with me. Itseems women mostly tend to under-estimate themselves, mainly when it comes to academics or career achievements. Even if we achieve something, we mostly attribute it to external factors.

For example : when we achieve a really aggressive project deadline, most of us would attribute it to either “i got lucky” or ” worked really hard on it” or “i had lot of support from my team”.. She says, many of us secretly feel that today I got lucky and did well, but very soon in future they might know that I am not up to it. I can connect to it as I have felt that way many a times. The problem is women often underestimate themselves.

In a survey, when men were asked to rate themselves, they have rated themselves more than they are capable of, whereas women rated themselves lesser than what they are actually capable of  (as per the book). And while men attribute their success to their innate qualities like skill and talent, women attribute success to external factors…Probably this is just how women are by nature…

She says, when she offered women employees in her organization for a new job role, they are often hesitant – “am I good enough for the task?” “will I be able to handle the new role?” “I think I still have much to learn in my current role”? etc etc..

So, we women have to stop the self-doubt and keep reminding ourselves what we are capable of. Remind ourselves of our achievements and they were not just because of luck – but because we are capable.

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writer’s block??!!

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Since couple of weeks, I have been thinking I should get back to blogging again.. But I am not able to put anything in words.. One reason is the endless work at office..even when I am taking a break, my mind keeps telling me you could use this time to finish off some work or debug some issues. Now that I am at home for diwali, I try to sneak in some time to write something, but nothing comes out… Is this like the writer’s block?? Anyways, I have finally decided not to try too hard and go with the flow 🙂

Happy Diwali everyone!!!!

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